字裡行間

  這些年，被病患的壓力如影隨形逼迫著，不是像火山噴發般澎拜，而是像電腦被強行關機一樣，一秒間螢幕黑掉，腦裡一片空白，我的身體好像不再是我的，從頭到腳都出了狀況  ! 而身體同時出現多種不適很難向別人解釋這種失調帶給我的困擾，於是，每次被問到身體有好些嗎？也只能簡單說一句，還好！

  Healing your heart is a not an easy process. You sit with your grief and gulp all the regret in your room and still find a piece of yourself empty and void. Nothing ever fills you; you are a glutton who doesn't know what it needs. The habits you're trying to leave, the people you miss, the urge to go back because everything seems hard hurts more than you can imagine. Your heart is heavy despite the emptiness, and you close your eyes every night wishing it will be better tomorrow. It gets worse on some days, and okay-ish on others. You find yourself letting go, moving on from things you shouldn't keep in your life but you also keep going back to the good memories and wondering if it's all necessary. If only there was a time machine, you would have never put your heart thru such hell. The steps you are taking ahead are so unrecognisable at times, you feel like you have barely moved. However, you know it, too, that you are removing yourself a little more each day from th...