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  I don't believe time heals all wounds we just learned to live with it ...

  Most days of my life feel as if I could just disappear and no one would notice, like a midnight snowfall ... yet I prefer that for the most part as I've never really enjoyed being with people, with expressing how I feel, and with letting anyone inside the walls I built around me. But I'm not gonna lie, there are also times when I wish I created deeper connections with others. Moments when I long for conversations which feel like having a glimpse of someone else's soul, or sharing a piece of myself, even if it's something as simple as a favorite movie.... Moments that I wish someone thinks of me and remembers the sound of my voice or the way I laugh. It's just a comforting thought, I guess, knowing that in the world full of busy people, I existed and somehow ..... I mattered.

Sometimes I hope the world gives me more time to heal and recover, to breathe and pause and never worry about missing a single moment. I realize I am getting so far behind, and while everyone else is at their best, here I am still navigating this life of being a beginner. I think I missed out on something so much, but I have no idea what it is …. love, prosperity, life maybe. Yet I hope all these years I fought my silent battles would lead to nothing but fulfillment.