Torn

I haven’t felt like myself for a while . I’m a little torn between different versions of myself  ~  The strong self  ，the chicken self  ;  the conservative  self  ，the progressive self ;  the optimistic self  ，the pessimistic self  ;  the sensitive self ，the dumb self  ; the mature self ， the naive self  .... It can be confusing at times ，but I’ve always had many sides to my personality and also many layers within each side which makes me a bit complicated to say the least . 

This is also visible in my art . I don’t have one single signature style ，but various forms of expressions . I can be raw ，I can be sophisticated ，I can be very gray ，I can be extremely colorful ... and I can be all those things at once .  Though I win some different followers by using different techniques and styles ,  I sort of envy artist with a clear signature style . I am too restless and too curious about the different level of expression . I am always moving back and forward . This wouldn’t feel genuine and it would look offbeat ... Yet it's my style  ~ to always  reinvent myself and my visual expression ... Perhaps ，on a deeper level ，I'm trying to use my art to rediscover and reclaim all the sides to myself that used to be censored or oppressed by other people .....

Well ，but in such a big big world ，whoever I am or will become ，doesn't really matter ，does it ?!!!