HoMe




每次自己或朋友回香港去 總有那麼一個問題在腦內盤旋  ~  這到底是回家   還是旅行 ?  ...  移民快33年了,剛「落地」那段日子 迷惘而渾沌  …  是的  香港以外的世界是全然陌生的 ,遼闊得不知從那裡作起點, 一分一厘地去探索。 

遊走在一個與自己文化背景完全廻異的國度  十六歲的我沒有太多的好奇,有的只是惶恐焦慮  心裡一直盤算  畢業或 經濟獨立以後  便跟這「鬼」地方說再見。 然後 入讀 college 那一年  給誤打誤撞地找到一份從小便响往的工作  於是  先前的想法便慢慢淡下來 ,甚至開始覺得  這個什麽也比香港落後遲緩的鄕巴城市  也非一無是處 … 可是  當大部份好友、親人及回憶中的美好都仍遺落在對岸時,內心還是不時會浮現一份想家的情懷 … 

然而  當我從新踏進這個早晚思念的城市時,卻又覺得它極其陌生,甚至給我眼花瞭亂的感覺 …

站在人流熙攘穿梭的繁鬧市中心 ,感覺很游離  似乎自己再也不屬於這個地方,像極一個觀光客  …  

一刻 我頹然落寞  所有記憶中的味道 彷彿都泯然無存 甚至有種無根無家的飄零感覚 …  

  不管離開它有多久多遠  感覺有多麽疏  那五光十色擾攘繽紛的城市   依然存著我久遠的憶記  著我的根 … 卽便一切已然腐蝕 … 

「家」怎麼定義 對漂泊海外的遊子來說 是永恒的悵惘 ... 

的 , 「家」 WHeRe  ?  ...

... When we're little , we couldn't wait to leave home. We wanted to spread our wings and live our life.  Home was easy to define back then  ~  where our parents lived , where we said our first words , where we grew up ... Ppl say home is where the heart is  ~  but what happens when you can't find ur heart 

?  ~  Are you homeless then ?

It's hard to define home in today’s global world.  Everyone is coming from somewhere else and everyone is going somewhere else.  I can't help but wonder where's home ?  It's a question that I get asked often and I never know how to answer.  I was born in HK but left there to Toronto when I was 16 yet my heart isn't into either of these two places ...

Perhaps home isn't about ur heart but it’s about where U belong  ... I’m not sure where I BeLoNG ... Yet i have no doubt it surely feels good having a place to call HoMe ...