Seize

I’ve always had a bit of a controversial relationship with the industrial complex of positive thinking …  I mean ,  I analyze and examine ,  as like  ,  a hobby   ~   so sticking my head in the sand and pretending everything is fine has never been my practice . It always takes so much work for me to bypass the analytical part of my brain and step into something more positive and hopeful .  Yes ,  I am a strong believer in Murphy's Law ,  I have to actually train my mind to be positive without too much evidence to work off of .  Indeed ,  I often find the advice of  “ be positive ” is rather limiting  .  For me  ,  the journey to being able to think positively has never been easy . I have to try very hard in order to move a batch of negative emotional beliefs and baggage out of the way in order to purify my thought . It’s a process , one that is especially difficult for a sensitive ,  thoughtful ,  critical , creative person . 

Sometimes it can feel like to think positively is to live in my own fantasy , to ignore what’s really happening in the realistic world in order to soothe myself .  

Yet ,  I do acknowledge that thinking positively and hopefully   ~    as opposed to focusing only on what’s going wrong and what could go wrong  ~  is a healthier, freer and more beneficial way to live …  Certainly ,  it’s not as simple as it’s presented but the act of clearing out emotional clutter will always bring out favorable outcomes … Yup ,  I can see it in my own reflection , any time I have been in a truly positive state of mind ,  my life has opened to me in ways that I could not have ever expected … then when I revert back to my  routine negative thinking and believing my fear  ~  my life constricts and becomes smaller and limited … opportunities  never taken ,  hopes never seen … 

In this brand new year , I hope I will find myself working at clearing out clutter in order to get to a more positive state … Yes ,  I think there are seasons for growing and then there are periods of life meant for seizing  and the only way to seize the next thing is to grow into a place where I can contain it and believe I can and will have it . 

Sure ,  it does take a space of time in order to prepare my mind for more positive outcomes  and it’s important to give myself some space to accept where I'm at …  Yes , I hope I'll be able to seize …  And ,  if  I can't ,  I hope I will at least be able to grow into the next great version of my loving and positive self .