Hawk

I open my heart to him and let him take over my mind and my soul ~  hesitation has no room  ~   I leap before I think ....... 

I swim in euphoric pleasure  ,  unmindful of the fact that bliss has a dark side  ,  ready to engulf me in its giant wave  ,  drowning me in sorrow ...... 

Grief comes to those who are not looking  ~  I was caught unprepared  ....... Suddenly the love of my life doesn’t love me anymore  ~  or has never loved me @ all  ....... The awareness sends me in frenzied shock of disbelief .   

I lose my self-worth . I feel defeated , foolish , w/o dignity , w/o pride , my self-esteem suffers  ~  “Am I not worth loving?” .........  

Then someone tells me about the hawk  ~  a bird of prey , when attacked by crows does not counter-attack  ~  It soars higher and higher in ever widening circles until it’s safe and free from getting hurt .

True  ~  Sometimes there are battles not worth fighting for . These are the battles that will not benefit me even if I have won . I just have to move away from them as fast as I could . 

The beauty of life is  ~  we always have a choice  ~  yes , We can camp in front of a forked road as long as we want , but time is gold  ......