running on empty

        

If character is defined as a complex of  mental and ethical traits marking a  person ~ A moral strength ~ Than how do we know what those moral , mental  and  ethical strengths are ?

 
       Recently  I realized that I am damn  hollow ~  I walk thru life unnoticed . It  has freaked me out since the fact was spoken out loud !!!  ~   But it's an honest observation to myself . 

I fear losing anything  ~  good or bad . 

I'm a kind person  ~  yet I also know not to everyone  ~   I'm kind to the weak . Why ?  Coz I see myself as being weak and I wanna treat them the way I wanna be treated.

I run when I'm the least bit scared  ~   Run n hide .  I live in fear of being judged .  I want love but if I have it  ,  I dunno what to do with it or think it comes with ulterior motives .

I 've lost myself ....  I 'm empathetic to the point where it's not healthy . Where upon I feel other ppl's pain as if my own . I have no clue of which way to go to turn to be .......

I'm a gal on the run  ~  with no place to go , no reason to run  ....  yet I keep running .....  juz to toss the curse , escape the demons , clear the mind ,  keep the walls up  ~  run and hide .......

 

Yup , This is me .  This is who I am  ~ sometimes I wish it weren't  ~   I wish I  could be a bit stronger ,  without having to run and hide all the time !!!!!! No one can help the gal on run  ~  except herself .....