Be Good To Yourself
" Be good to urself " ~ like a broken record , I repead it to myself almost
every day for the past few months.
Yup , after a few broken relationships , I finally realized I need to take good
care of myself . I have to stop waiting for someone else to do it for me what
I absolutely must be doing for myself . Being good to ME must be my
mantra and my number one priority .
I gradually understand that if I endlessly waiting for the world to deliver me
" the one " I deserve , the circumstances I deserve , the situations I deserve
.... I'm juz letting the minutes , hrs , days and weeks go by where I could be
attending to my own needs . I cherish the memory of someone holding my
hand but have never actually learned to hold my own . Sooooo , when a
relationship is broken , everything is cold and bleak ~ well , of course it
is , coz I was left with someone who has consistently abandoned me ~
And that's me .
No matter how long does it take and how hard it's gonna be , I must learn
to be there for myself and learn to care myself the way I want someone else
to care for me . Really , no one has treated me as badly or left me as alone
as I have . It’s time to come back to me .
@ my age , I know I should stop daydreaming for someone to jump out of
the shadows and whisk me off to my deservedly wonderful place / my
fantasy life . I must learn to be there by my own n make that place inside
myself. I must spend a part of each and every day affirming myself be
good to myself . I believe it's in this “ attention to me ” time that I can
truly learn who I am and find that I can give to myself in a way no one
else can.
Anna Quindlen once said ~ I read and walked for miles @ nite along the
beach , writing bad blank verse and searching endlessly for someone
wonderful who would step out of the darkness and change my life . It
never crossed my mind that that person could be me ~ How true!! ~
For I am my home and I'm the one who solely take charge of how I build
that home ...