Goodbyes
Finally it's time to say goodbye to 2016 !
It's been a hell of a year .... Yet , I can't say I hate 2016 , yup , I just can't ... I can't hate on any of the years . I can't hate on the gift and complexity of life itself , of time itself . I just can't .
Speaking personally , 2016 was not only a hard year globally , but for me as well .... I was faced with the challenges of my health issues , the end of a precious relationship , the terrifying cancer diagnosis of friends , the death of a loved one , the thorough
If anyone had sat me down on the 1st day of 2016 and told me what was coming this year to me , I don't know if I would called you a humbug or started digging a really deep hole to hide myself in !!!
But the thing is , NO ONE can ever tell us exactly what's coming . And even if we did see what was coming , we don't get to dig a hole to hide in ... Not while we're still lucky enough to be alive .
Yup , what's coming shall come , and as long as we live , we'll have the vast accountability and challenge of trying to figure out how to respond to destiny ~ how to endure it , how to enjoy it , how to understand it ... And life will keep unfolding ... Tomorrow , when we are gifted with a brand new year , we must
keep producing our own response !
This brings me to a theory of FREE WILL vs. FATE ( from the book " EAT PRAY LOVE " ) . Liz Gilbert , described a human life as being something like a circus acrobat , riding on two horses at the same time ~ One horse is fate , which we have absolutely no control of . The other horse is free will , our own choices
about how to direct our own lives and how we react to fate . She pointed out , no one is 100% victim of destiny and none of us are 100% masters of our own fate as well . It's constant alter of energy between the two forces and we often have to steer the horse of free will gingerly and bravely in order to keep it in responsive
alignment with the more wild horse of destiny .
She's right ~ There are ALWAYS two horses under us and there always will be ... sure , It's a hell of a ride but it's a game we must play as long as we're still here .Yup , It's been a hard year for me and while I'm still in the ring , I'll ALWAYS have things that happen to me which I didn't choose ~ yet I hope I can bestride between the two powerful forces ~ the uncontrollable one , and the controllable one , and don't surrender into feelings of fear and utter helplessness , but instead find my position of curiosity and courage about everything that happens .
It's been a hell of a year .... Yet , I can't say I hate 2016 , yup , I just can't ... I can't hate on any of the years . I can't hate on the gift and complexity of life itself , of time itself . I just can't .
Speaking personally , 2016 was not only a hard year globally , but for me as well .... I was faced with the challenges of my health issues , the end of a precious relationship , the terrifying cancer diagnosis of friends , the death of a loved one , the thorough
upheaval of my personal life . It's been a year of funeral and hospitals and fear and courage and shocking changes and dread and sorrow and forgiveness and pain .
If anyone had sat me down on the 1st day of 2016 and told me what was coming this year to me , I don't know if I would called you a humbug or started digging a really deep hole to hide myself in !!!
But the thing is , NO ONE can ever tell us exactly what's coming . And even if we did see what was coming , we don't get to dig a hole to hide in ... Not while we're still lucky enough to be alive .
Yup , what's coming shall come , and as long as we live , we'll have the vast accountability and challenge of trying to figure out how to respond to destiny ~ how to endure it , how to enjoy it , how to understand it ... And life will keep unfolding ... Tomorrow , when we are gifted with a brand new year , we must
keep producing our own response !
This brings me to a theory of FREE WILL vs. FATE ( from the book " EAT PRAY LOVE " ) . Liz Gilbert , described a human life as being something like a circus acrobat , riding on two horses at the same time ~ One horse is fate , which we have absolutely no control of . The other horse is free will , our own choices
about how to direct our own lives and how we react to fate . She pointed out , no one is 100% victim of destiny and none of us are 100% masters of our own fate as well . It's constant alter of energy between the two forces and we often have to steer the horse of free will gingerly and bravely in order to keep it in responsive
alignment with the more wild horse of destiny .
She's right ~ There are ALWAYS two horses under us and there always will be ... sure , It's a hell of a ride but it's a game we must play as long as we're still here .Yup , It's been a hard year for me and while I'm still in the ring , I'll ALWAYS have things that happen to me which I didn't choose ~ yet I hope I can bestride between the two powerful forces ~ the uncontrollable one , and the controllable one , and don't surrender into feelings of fear and utter helplessness , but instead find my position of curiosity and courage about everything that happens .
What's done is done . What's coming is coming . I now say goodbye to everything that's behind me and continue galloping through this messy life like the wind ....