It's been a long time I have totally lost confidence in myself !  All of these while ,  my life seemed to be up side down .   I've down and locked myself up for quite some time ,  but fortunately I still manage to smile to people and myself . 

After struggling for some time ,  I think the most insane and goofy part of my life should be over .  I  supposed it is not too late for me to start living in an active & positive life  ~  Hoping to upgrade myself probably in every aspects including my health ,  my thoughts ,  my abilities ,  my knowledge ,  self-cultivation  ......  and lots more . 

I know I need to have another view of my life  ~   tho I might not have a life that I actually long for  ,  yet I lead a simple life that there are things and people inspired me up  .