Fight Song

So many things are happening right now ... It's as if my vision is all blurry all of a sudden ...  I don't know where I'm headed ...

I can no longer plan out the future .... coz my future might end without an omen ....There are no magic words nor  prayers which I can mumble to somehow detect what will happen or where will I go next ...

Sure ， I can pretend I have all the answers ，  all the free choices ， and I know beyond a doubt where I will go ... yet the universe still decides. Fate still decides. God still decides.... And I’m learning to accept that .... 

Yup ，I’m learning to blind my eyes and lean my head back . I’m learning to follow a plan that’s greater than my own . I’m learning  to walk alone in the dark .... But most of all ， I’m learning to try as much as I can to direct the course of my life ，then accept the challenges and defeats as they come ....