surviving

Feel so lost ， so out of place ，so unsure about my own choices and decisions that I made or yet to make. 

For so long  ， I criticize and judge myself so unfairly ...  sure ，I know all the self love and self care talks ， yet at times I fail to practice them ．

Meanwhile  ， I am giving into the waves that I sail in ⋯ or who knows if I am drowning in the same time .... Yup ，I feel these feelings rise and fall，in a moment uplifting me and next dragging me down to the darkest corners ·

It’s not easy on days like these to function ， when all you can do is barely survive .. 

So I am surviving today  ~  In hope of peace ，in hope of love，in hope of a better tomorrow .. if ever there's a tomorrow ....