far behind

Sometimes I hope the world gives me more time to heal and recover, to breathe and pause and never worry about missing a single moment. I realize I am getting so far behind, and while everyone else is at their best, here I am still navigating this life of being a beginner.

I think I missed out on something so much, but I have no idea what it is …. love, prosperity, life maybe. Yet I hope all these years I fought my silent battles would lead to nothing but fulfillment.