Despair

 

Sometimes, I think I can't live any longer, and it's always in my head. I feel so devastated but I couldn't talk about it to anyone. I just let the day pass as if every day is just a normal day ... but it's not. Some days, I feel like I am dying inside. And most of the days, I feel like I am mentally and emotionally exhausted. But of course, those things are not visible to others. Maybe they thought I'm okay all along, but little did they know, I've been having a hard time fighting my silent battles alone.

I don't know how long will it takes to be okay, but I'm getting tired of feeling devastated. Everything is slowly falling apart....And sometimes, I just want to stop fighting anymore. I feel so hopeless.... I thought it's just in my head, but it's all over my body and soul. I guess it's just so hard to live with a broken heart full of despair...